immediately start vomiting with a curl-up-in-a-ball stomachache
in barnes and noble
at a birthday party
now that she’s walked in and decided to instantly be a bitch to me about nothing
after i told her i was having a really horrid day and didn’t really want to interact
i don’t really identify at all with either gender
i use female pronouns because it’s convenient and i’ve never thought about it but
i only think of my gender as a part of my identity inasmuch as it has shaped me experientially; so much of my personality and habits have been shaped by adversity and constantly struggling against gender and prejudice that i think i would be very different if i had been born in a privileged gender position instead. i just would have had a completely different life. but i don’t think of gender as anything intrinsic to me.
i do like the sexualized performance of femininity as kind of an OCD ritual that comforts me because i have a lot of ish about objectification and self-objectification and value and function and tl;dr feeling like i successfully embody the function of ‘sex object’ makes me feel better even though i know it’s completely bullshit. so i like ‘doing being a girl’ not in and of itself but because of the social and psychological rewards associated with its successful performance. but. i also don’t think that really relates to my gender.
idk i’m probably not going to change anything about how i present myself because it’s not something that makes me uncomfortable either way. i just. don’t give a shit.
if this is offensive somewhere plz let me know so that i may b changin my ways
hey hey hey hey hey hey hey connor hey connor
and other people interested in reading about the monstrous feminine, the female womb as a self-defined and -contained entity intrinsically disruptive to the phallocentric freudian paradigm, and gender relations in shitty horror films
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(anyway this has ‘the monstrous feminine’ by barbara creed, ‘her body, himself: gender in the slasher film’ by carol clover, some essay on the monstrous feminine in the ring that i was like lol ok THEY ARE ALL PRETTY AWESOME)
ah yes the man who throws seven year olds out of windows and endeavors to throw babies out of trebuchets and thinks a silent cersei would be sweet but I’d miss her tongue when we kissed
the man who murders a woman for being a whore and participated in the gang rape of his wife and consistently thinks about violent and horrible ways to murder and kill his sister
essentially decent people
in spite of everything
what if when the kids and trolls meet karkat walks through a doorway and a bucket lands on his head
and he thinks john’s flirting with him
The reason why focus on male characters in a fandom more than female characters, when all/most the characters in the source material are well written regardless of gender, can be interpreted as misogynistic to some degree:
Why are you more interested in the stories of men characters?
There’s nothing wrong with being interested in them. I obviously write stories with dude characters. I obviously write stories FOCUSED on guys, on occasion. But if you don’t enjoy stories that focus on women, too, why not? Obviously, this reason is personal. And on a personal level, that reason is valid.
But when a fandom made up of hundreds of people or more shows a pattern of, “Oh, but I prefer stories about men,” that suggests that there’s something deeper than personal preference in a vacuum going on in general.
That doesn’t mean that preferring stories about dudes is wrong or bad. It doesn’t make you a bad person. It doesn’t make you a misogynist or a bad woman or any of that. You might not like stories like that because you’re a queer man who doesn’t want women in his porn. You might not like reading how women are usually portrayed by authors. There are any number of reasons that are completely understandable. But since we almost all come out of a culture that implies over and over, by lack of media focused on women’s stories, that women are inherently less interesting, a pattern of exclusion also can reinforce and recreate those ideas.
I don’t care if you, personally never write a woman character in your life. Honest truth. But I do want to be able to find it in fandom, and I want to find discussion about it in fandom, and I want stories that say Hey, look at these cool women! to NOT be token admissions that sure, yes, women are cool. And right now, because of how reblogging on tumblr works, and how the tag system is partially broken, I can’t find it most of the time. Fan weeks do promote the reblogging and sharing of fanwork that would otherwise just get a ‘like’.
He didn’t though. He said he if could have preserved the union without freeing any slaves, he would have.
So nah, he didn’t really like Black people. But cool story, tho.
he also only freed the slaves of the seceded states — states loyal to the union were allowed to keep their slaves, as per the emancipation proclamation.
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whoistorule said: Oooh! I'm sorry I didn't mean to spoil idk if you even knew there was a cersei II! It hasn't been out that long I shouldn't have assumed you've read the whole thing.
But anyway yes. There is no redemption arc. This is not a thing.
lol no i don’t think you did i am expecting it to be glorious regardless tho
and ugh i know as far as i remember the ‘arc’ consisted of
- him going back on a whim and not letting brienne die
- feeling insecure about his hand
- sending her off on a hopeless quest that he figured she’d probably get killed on
- and which she nearly got killed on
oh right he got pissed with cersei’s transparent attempts at sexual manipulation and left
^ pretty sure that one’s the real reason people believe in the mythical redemption arc. but he’s free of her evil vagina!! he’s obviously a good guy now!!!!!!!!